I really need to get over it

Yeah more ranting about K (the partner who didn't do anything), so today V and I decided we would donante the left over stickers + beads from our project to the hospital b/c they are short on supplies - it's not like we're going to use them anyways. K asked if she could have them, I'm like err you didn't pay me for them and are you really going to make me sort stickers and beads into a 1:2 ratio? I don't have the time to do that not to mention when she asked if she could have them the way she asked was like could she have all of them. I mean it's like 6$ each person, is it really that hard to donate 6$ to make kids with cancer happy? If she was having money issues I wouldn't mind but I doubt she is and really, are you going to make me sort out stickers and beads when I don't even get 5h of sleep each night? She acts of if I'm rich and it's my duty to pay for everything, like I mentioned previously, my parents offered to pay for the food. K didn't thank my parents or show any gratiude - she acted as if it was my responsibility to pay for everything. Actually, at my house in my living, earlier on, when I said the cost of food must be split into 3 she asked "why?" and hinted or actually said that I should pay b/c I covered the section "La norriture d'Acadie" -I'm pretty sure she said I should pay but I can't remember so I'll give her the benefit of the doubt and say she only asked "why?" Like are you serious? I'm not an ATM - haha now I know how my dad feels. I really really really need to get over this and move on, it's not healthy or productive for me - the way she treats me and the project itself was so stressful my running was horrible last week; at one pt. last week I felt like running was robotic for me and I no longer enjoy it....

However, now that the project is over and I no longer stress out during my runs I actually PR'ed today:) surprisingly, I felt like I was running slow but my final time for 11k was 47:58:38 - I think my long runs are a faster pace but I think my 11k base route has more hilly parts. I think this PR was due to my attire - I broke out the tshirt today. Ya, that's right, I wore shorts& tshirt (loving TO weather though I'm scared for the polar bears simply of all this global warming - it's not normal for Canada to be 3C in March - early Marc). It was kind of funny b/c I downloaded "I believe" and some stuff by Quebec artist, Marie-Mai and I was just belting out the lyrics and cars were driving slower as if they wanted to know if I was really wearing shorts & tshirt.

I'm so upset with myself, I got my ToK paper back today and I basically failed communication - 7.5/10. My knowledge was 18.5/20 so if you really think about it I got a 92.5% but lost the rest of the marks b/c I can't write properly - this really upsets me b/c I'm a predicted high 5 low 6 for IB HL English....I guess outside of English class I can't write or communicate my thoughts.

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-Poni got traded for Caputi & 5th (well Caputi & some guy but that guy got traded for a 5th draft pick)
-Stemp. got traded for a 4th & 7th draft pick
-Joey Mac for 7th draft pick (personally I think he's worth more than a 7th)
will miss Poni the most.

Today's Easter Island

ToK Today:
In Brief: Easter Island
In 1772, Cooke approached Easter Island where the explorers saw beautiful wooden statues however when they entered the island they found remnants of people - no one was alive. Everyone on the island was dead, these people had a religion where they had to revere to their gods and they believed to do so they had to build these beautiful statutes, in order to do so they chopped all the trees and vegetation. There is proof that these people knew they would starve and die by doing so but they kept on proceeding.

We think that these people were so stupid but in truth, we are the exact same - instead of a small island putting themselves into extinction, we today, are putting a whole planet into extinction. Today, we aren't necessarily directly building statues of gods but we are building beautiful skyscrapers of metal, polluting automobiles, and harmful nuclear weapons - we are building 'beautiful metal statues' and even though we know by doing so we are harming the earth and ourselves in the long road we continue to do so. We are no different from the people of Easter Island. Just think, some of the most furtile land in our earth is now covered by concrete & asphalt, take Toronto for example, Toronto has some of the most furtile land on our planet but nothing can be grown here - as we continue to "progress and develop" we are essentially destroying the things we need. Those 'beautiful' nuclear weapons developed by humans? we know it will kill us yet we continue to develop new ones - why? These will only harm us - in a few years we will be the people of Easter Island - we will be the people others study who have put themselves into extinctions through our worship of the gods of materialism & self power.