Something is messed w/my IT band - post run it started to click and now bending my knee is an issue. It hurts soo much.
I don't get it b/c I felt amazing during the run, the time wasn't the best but it was my first sub 50 (49:56.36) for 11k since May so it was pretty decent. I was relaxed and could have pushed harder so I really don't understand why my IT band is messed up. It's not like I've been over training for the past few weeks - if anything I've been undertraining so none of this makes sense.
ARG.
Athletic Banquet tomorrow. Fun.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
WHAT AN APESHIT MOVE
you know how many times I've stood at my front door after a run and rang the doorbell for minutes without anyone opening it even though they're just sitting there watching tv? COUNTLESS.
my dad went out for a walk tonight and when he came home I was in the middle of a bio genetics question and my mom was doing god knows what. He stands there and rings the doorbell for 2min even though he has his keys. After 2 mins I got sick of the doorbell which was ruining my concentration and opened the door for him. He fucking yells at me and just goes ape-shit of how I'm supposed to be responsible enough to open the door. He drones on and on and one about how I don't do shit at home.
Holy fuck. Honestly, you're one to talk considering you do less than me at home. You create messes for US to clean up. You complain about other people's messes when yours is the worst. You can't even eat an apple without my mom peeling it first. At least I try to clean my room a few times a year. Every once in a while I try to help with dinner even though my mom hates having people in her kitchen. My mom has athritis and I seem to be the only one that tries to make her fingers feel better.
A few weeks ago my mom's athritis flared up and she couldn't bend her fingers very much yet my dad tells her she has to cook for his dad as well. He is such a fucking asshole - can't you see she's in pain and cooking for us is hard enough? His solution is he will chop garlic for her from now on - he keeps saying he does so much around the house but YOU CHOPPED GARLIC ONE FUCKING TIME. yeah, I get that he spends a shit load of time at work and comes home tired. But guess what? I have school, I run, and I do a shitload of stuff around school. You don't see me complaining?
EVEN HE WENT SO FAR AS TO FUCKING SAY I SHOULD STOP RUNNING B/C IT RUINS MY ACADEMICS AND I SHOULD BE HELPING OUT AROUND THE HOUSE RATHER THAN RUNNING. I took tonight off running b/c I have a bio quiz tomorrow. I try to help but my mom is picky and needs everything to be done HER way so she tells me to sit my ass down and do my homework.
WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT A FUCKING APE-SHIT DOUCHE BAG MOVE.
my dad went out for a walk tonight and when he came home I was in the middle of a bio genetics question and my mom was doing god knows what. He stands there and rings the doorbell for 2min even though he has his keys. After 2 mins I got sick of the doorbell which was ruining my concentration and opened the door for him. He fucking yells at me and just goes ape-shit of how I'm supposed to be responsible enough to open the door. He drones on and on and one about how I don't do shit at home.
Holy fuck. Honestly, you're one to talk considering you do less than me at home. You create messes for US to clean up. You complain about other people's messes when yours is the worst. You can't even eat an apple without my mom peeling it first. At least I try to clean my room a few times a year. Every once in a while I try to help with dinner even though my mom hates having people in her kitchen. My mom has athritis and I seem to be the only one that tries to make her fingers feel better.
A few weeks ago my mom's athritis flared up and she couldn't bend her fingers very much yet my dad tells her she has to cook for his dad as well. He is such a fucking asshole - can't you see she's in pain and cooking for us is hard enough? His solution is he will chop garlic for her from now on - he keeps saying he does so much around the house but YOU CHOPPED GARLIC ONE FUCKING TIME. yeah, I get that he spends a shit load of time at work and comes home tired. But guess what? I have school, I run, and I do a shitload of stuff around school. You don't see me complaining?
EVEN HE WENT SO FAR AS TO FUCKING SAY I SHOULD STOP RUNNING B/C IT RUINS MY ACADEMICS AND I SHOULD BE HELPING OUT AROUND THE HOUSE RATHER THAN RUNNING. I took tonight off running b/c I have a bio quiz tomorrow. I try to help but my mom is picky and needs everything to be done HER way so she tells me to sit my ass down and do my homework.
WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT A FUCKING APE-SHIT DOUCHE BAG MOVE.
H's Sexy 17th
Found ourselves back at Berlin Nightclub last night for H's 17th birthday.
Fun night, danced ourselves silly, noshed on sweet things (candy, chocolate, cake), just chilled. JC and I hit the poles a couple of times and lordy, he is amazing on them. He did these kind of upside down things - and none of us have had any training or anything. I swear if we are ever broke university students we can pay our way through school by dancing on poles.
It was kind of lame in the sense D, J, K, JC, & I were the only people dancing for most of the night - everyone else was just being lame. But I think it was largely b/c the DJ was kind of horrible, he actually disappeared for most of the night and the same songs kept playing over and over again.
The photographer was cute but eh, pissed me off when he took a picture of me kind of stuck while climbing out of the coat check thing. He also heard me calling him cute but whatever, never going to see him again anyways.
The poles were a huge hit though, I think most of the people at least attempted to dance there....
*painted my nails this amazingly brilliant blue!
doing speedwork tonight if all goes well
bio quiz tomorrow
Fun night, danced ourselves silly, noshed on sweet things (candy, chocolate, cake), just chilled. JC and I hit the poles a couple of times and lordy, he is amazing on them. He did these kind of upside down things - and none of us have had any training or anything. I swear if we are ever broke university students we can pay our way through school by dancing on poles.
It was kind of lame in the sense D, J, K, JC, & I were the only people dancing for most of the night - everyone else was just being lame. But I think it was largely b/c the DJ was kind of horrible, he actually disappeared for most of the night and the same songs kept playing over and over again.
The photographer was cute but eh, pissed me off when he took a picture of me kind of stuck while climbing out of the coat check thing. He also heard me calling him cute but whatever, never going to see him again anyways.
The poles were a huge hit though, I think most of the people at least attempted to dance there....
*painted my nails this amazingly brilliant blue!
doing speedwork tonight if all goes well
bio quiz tomorrow
Saturday, June 5, 2010
:D
I popped into Fitness Source today b/c I thought they were going to have gels & hydration packs (Running Room is so expensive I'm trying to avoid going there with all my power) but they didn't. Instead, I found a guy who was working there that has seen me run. He wasn't shy about it at all - he straight out tells me that he's seen me running & my shorts. LOL. I have never seen this guy before yet he is somehow able to ID me. I guess I have become my town's landmark or something.
My competitive nature never comes at the right times, out on my run today some guy was running with his dog and I just HAD to pass him. I wasn't warmed up yet but I still sped up and do I regret it now. My, the muscles at the back of my right knee are abnormally tight yet loose. Never again will I speed up without a proper warm up.
working on ToK presentation, doing powerpt instead b/c documentary building takes too much time and I still need to do a ton of bio.
The Helena Guergis & Rahim Jaffer Affair: Where perceptions, incomplete knowledge, appetite and a questioned desire for the truth comes to play.
My competitive nature never comes at the right times, out on my run today some guy was running with his dog and I just HAD to pass him. I wasn't warmed up yet but I still sped up and do I regret it now. My, the muscles at the back of my right knee are abnormally tight yet loose. Never again will I speed up without a proper warm up.
working on ToK presentation, doing powerpt instead b/c documentary building takes too much time and I still need to do a ton of bio.
The Helena Guergis & Rahim Jaffer Affair: Where perceptions, incomplete knowledge, appetite and a questioned desire for the truth comes to play.
Friday, June 4, 2010
UNYCA!
Amazing amazing time at UNYCA today! It was so much fun and I just loved it! This year wasn't the best but I had soo much fun and it was just an interesting day.
Highlights
-4/5 of my delegation either received an honourable mention or won an award
-D won an award for most active
-S won best delegate in EcoSoc
-A won most active in EcoSoc (he's France though) {apparently he and I were basically tied for most active - but I personally think he deserves it more, he onto Speaker's List for every topic (sometimes twice) and asked POIs for every topic}
-the majority if not all of my amendments to the resolutions passed - my babies were well accepted
-A bunch of countries declared war on France & Germany (me!) b/c my buddy in SC was kind of extreme and yeah...
-Before war was declared I sent a page w/the instructions to extradite, expel, and announce removal of my delegate in SC's citizenship.
-After war was declared the SC Chair actually announced this to the SC. LOL
-sadly, my buddy was down in GA explaining something so he missed his extradiction
-The delegation from China was mostly composed of white, black, & brown girls LOL. (not meaning to sound racist)
-Germany was composed of Asians and brows
-None of us had blue eyes or blond hair - we were Hitler's worst nightmare
-guy from USA was cute but I kind of pissed him off b/c we were complaining how HR was missing the US delegate - at least the USA delegate wasn't missing in SC - imagine if that happened
I think I want to be a Chair next year - they asked me to be one this year but I declined b/c I wanted to debate
Highlights
-4/5 of my delegation either received an honourable mention or won an award
-D won an award for most active
-S won best delegate in EcoSoc
-A won most active in EcoSoc (he's France though) {apparently he and I were basically tied for most active - but I personally think he deserves it more, he onto Speaker's List for every topic (sometimes twice) and asked POIs for every topic}
-the majority if not all of my amendments to the resolutions passed - my babies were well accepted
-A bunch of countries declared war on France & Germany (me!) b/c my buddy in SC was kind of extreme and yeah...
-Before war was declared I sent a page w/the instructions to extradite, expel, and announce removal of my delegate in SC's citizenship.
-After war was declared the SC Chair actually announced this to the SC. LOL
-sadly, my buddy was down in GA explaining something so he missed his extradiction
-The delegation from China was mostly composed of white, black, & brown girls LOL. (not meaning to sound racist)
-Germany was composed of Asians and brows
-None of us had blue eyes or blond hair - we were Hitler's worst nightmare
-guy from USA was cute but I kind of pissed him off b/c we were complaining how HR was missing the US delegate - at least the USA delegate wasn't missing in SC - imagine if that happened
I think I want to be a Chair next year - they asked me to be one this year but I declined b/c I wanted to debate
Thursday, June 3, 2010
It's Nice to Know that Someone Believes
As I was leaving the school after running the trail today, I decided to pop into the gym office and tell one of my track coaches how much I appreciate her. Mac & Civ are the ones that got me to start running and not stop after a few days, but she is the one that pushed me to work on speed and just helped me refine my running.
This led to a mini-discussion of how she thinks I have the drive to run well in the future. When I told her about the email from Indiana Tech (haven't emailed the coach back b/c I can't fill out the form he wants me to - haven't done my SATs or ACTs nor do I have times for 3200 or 1600) she wasn't surprised that I was getting such an email (I was so surprised when I got that email b/c my times aren't the best AND I'm not exactly googleable). She went on to say I have a ton of potential and the I'm what coaches call "raw talent" (I'm guessing it's b/c I'm not training with a club and I haven't been running for long but yeah...not sure what "raw talent" is) and how she believes I will succeed in the future. She also reminded me that I should be using sports and sports should not be using me - don't let anything try to control what I think is right and wrong for me.
Idk, I think it was really nice of her to say this to me and it's nice that she believes in me - especially since after the spring season I started to lose a bit of belief in myself. The fact she thinks I have the potential and the drive is really nice - especially since it is rumored that she was once one of the best throwers in Canada. In my yearbook she wrote "I can't wait to see you in the Olympics" - while I obviously won't make it to the Games it's nice to see it put figuratively.
With her words in mind I'm going to attack my summer training head on and just try to succeed. What she said about not letting sports use me is right - I think my spring season was so horrible b/c I was so focused on getting better times; she's right in the fact I need to do my sport b/c I love it and by loving it I will do well. Also, Hallarn was right yesterday when he said we all have to do things the best we can - we have to be the best of our abilities. On someone's grad message he wrote, "We all have the ability. The difference is how we use it" - he couldn't have chosen better words.
I'm about to be part of a study! Two profs in Ontario want to conduct a study about the IB program - even though I'm dropping out they want some info - about why I'm dropping &etc. It's actually kind of cool in my mind. I wish I was staying with the program but I know it's better for me to drop.
***my alarm didn't ring this morning so I didn't do a morning run
5k after school in pouring rain - 21:59, slow but it's expected b/c it's my first 5k since early May and first run with hills in a while - not to mention the rain was kind of bad
doing an 11 later tonight
This led to a mini-discussion of how she thinks I have the drive to run well in the future. When I told her about the email from Indiana Tech (haven't emailed the coach back b/c I can't fill out the form he wants me to - haven't done my SATs or ACTs nor do I have times for 3200 or 1600) she wasn't surprised that I was getting such an email (I was so surprised when I got that email b/c my times aren't the best AND I'm not exactly googleable). She went on to say I have a ton of potential and the I'm what coaches call "raw talent" (I'm guessing it's b/c I'm not training with a club and I haven't been running for long but yeah...not sure what "raw talent" is) and how she believes I will succeed in the future. She also reminded me that I should be using sports and sports should not be using me - don't let anything try to control what I think is right and wrong for me.
Idk, I think it was really nice of her to say this to me and it's nice that she believes in me - especially since after the spring season I started to lose a bit of belief in myself. The fact she thinks I have the potential and the drive is really nice - especially since it is rumored that she was once one of the best throwers in Canada. In my yearbook she wrote "I can't wait to see you in the Olympics" - while I obviously won't make it to the Games it's nice to see it put figuratively.
With her words in mind I'm going to attack my summer training head on and just try to succeed. What she said about not letting sports use me is right - I think my spring season was so horrible b/c I was so focused on getting better times; she's right in the fact I need to do my sport b/c I love it and by loving it I will do well. Also, Hallarn was right yesterday when he said we all have to do things the best we can - we have to be the best of our abilities. On someone's grad message he wrote, "We all have the ability. The difference is how we use it" - he couldn't have chosen better words.
I'm about to be part of a study! Two profs in Ontario want to conduct a study about the IB program - even though I'm dropping out they want some info - about why I'm dropping &etc. It's actually kind of cool in my mind. I wish I was staying with the program but I know it's better for me to drop.
***my alarm didn't ring this morning so I didn't do a morning run
5k after school in pouring rain - 21:59, slow but it's expected b/c it's my first 5k since early May and first run with hills in a while - not to mention the rain was kind of bad
doing an 11 later tonight
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Gah!
Got our yearbooks today and I'm actually kind of upset (and I never get upset), on the cross country page they decided to give individual shots of the senior girls team and one of the girls got posted twice while I didn't get an individual shot. Normally I don't care about something this minor but she was posted TWICE and I didn't get an individual shot - I don't mind the fact I didn't get my individual shot that much but I'm pissed she got posted twice. In a way I guess it's b/c in my mind, not to sound like I'm bragging, I kind of lead the lead to provinicials - it was my time that helped lower our team time score.
^^I sound like a pompous ass in the above statement, don't get me wrong, I love how hard EVERYONE on our team worked but it seems like I never get recognized for the effort I put into things
^^kind of pissed b/c I asked a yb buddy and she told me it was b/c one of the girls on the team who was a photographer didn't give her the pics - the photographer is the one that gave me my set of pictures not to mention yb should have asked me for pics - the coaches handed me a set of the xc photos.
As I was leaving the school today, walking down the small gym hallway, an old crush, J, was checking me out. He kind of glanced at me then turned away and looked back again, and again - what wonders a kilt can do. I still can't believe last year I thought he was kind of uglish but this year I think he's just HOT. Looking back, I think my crush was purely based on physical attraction - I don't really know him, just one season of xc. I also think it's b/c he's amazingly fast and I was attracted to the idea of running at that pace. Who knows. all I can say is he's hot. no longer crushing on him but he's mighty fine to look at - and I'm not the only one who thinks this way.
10:55pm
RAIN IS DRIVING ME NUTS. Around my running time (8pm) it was raining like no tomorrow so I couldn't run today and now my legs are just driving me nuts. I've wanted to run since this MORNING. B/c of this I have to do a double tomorrow, 11k in the morning and speedwork at night. I hate doing both a longer run and speedwork in the same day- leaves me totally drained.
J drew me in my yearbook pantless last year, and this year she drew me without a shirt (with a sports bra), wondering if she'll draw me nude or fully clothed next year.
Dad was out late for a meeting and when my mom gets up in the morning, boy will she be pissed. Instead of eating the congee Mom warmed up for him before she went to bed, he left and drove to MCD for a chicken sandwich. HE. IS, DEAD. MEAT.
^^I sound like a pompous ass in the above statement, don't get me wrong, I love how hard EVERYONE on our team worked but it seems like I never get recognized for the effort I put into things
^^kind of pissed b/c I asked a yb buddy and she told me it was b/c one of the girls on the team who was a photographer didn't give her the pics - the photographer is the one that gave me my set of pictures not to mention yb should have asked me for pics - the coaches handed me a set of the xc photos.
As I was leaving the school today, walking down the small gym hallway, an old crush, J, was checking me out. He kind of glanced at me then turned away and looked back again, and again - what wonders a kilt can do. I still can't believe last year I thought he was kind of uglish but this year I think he's just HOT. Looking back, I think my crush was purely based on physical attraction - I don't really know him, just one season of xc. I also think it's b/c he's amazingly fast and I was attracted to the idea of running at that pace. Who knows. all I can say is he's hot. no longer crushing on him but he's mighty fine to look at - and I'm not the only one who thinks this way.
10:55pm
RAIN IS DRIVING ME NUTS. Around my running time (8pm) it was raining like no tomorrow so I couldn't run today and now my legs are just driving me nuts. I've wanted to run since this MORNING. B/c of this I have to do a double tomorrow, 11k in the morning and speedwork at night. I hate doing both a longer run and speedwork in the same day- leaves me totally drained.
J drew me in my yearbook pantless last year, and this year she drew me without a shirt (with a sports bra), wondering if she'll draw me nude or fully clothed next year.
Dad was out late for a meeting and when my mom gets up in the morning, boy will she be pissed. Instead of eating the congee Mom warmed up for him before she went to bed, he left and drove to MCD for a chicken sandwich. HE. IS, DEAD. MEAT.
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